I trusted my instinct for once

and it worked out the way I was hoping.

I was hesitant to bring that topic up with you, but im so so glad I did. I was worried things were going to go the way they commonly have in the past, but the fact that it didn't proves you're not the same as the others. I feel so relieved, and I am so happy things are working out this way. You truely are a great person.



the next 24 days are going to go by just as slow as the past week has.

as I look up to the sky to count the stars

I wonder if you see them where you are.






These past two days have been great.
The lack of sleep and the excess of cold weather was totally worth it.


30 days and counting.

im holding it against you

For knowing the words.
What to say to make my heartbeat stop.




Before I went, I knew going to indianpolis was something I needed really bad.
Little did I know, something I've wanted to happen for so long, did.
Now I have an aggonizing wait for wednesday. So I can unmiss the person im missing.









The people that matter know who im talking about, and I hope he does to.



A note to the person this is about: heavy blankets and cuddle sesh's. Nuff said.

tonights one of those nights.

ive been looking forward to finally hanging out with you for a while. you're one of my favorite people to talk to, mainly because you seem to have a light heart and always make me laugh no matter what. I'm just done with getting my hopes up and feeling like you just tell me we'll hang out so you don't have to tell me that you really don't want to hang out. I know what its like to be a busy person, trust me I do, but you honestly can't sit there and tell me you have no time to hang out or anything when half the time when i text you you're going out or you're already out or something. I know you have friends and everything, but the last time I checked we were friends too. Its getting old putting forth all of this effort for what seems like nothing. Feel free to let me know when you're finally free. Just hope that I am too.

well this past week was....eventful?

first things first: travis langolf can fall off the face of the earth for all i care. i have done nothing but good things for you and have been nothing but a great friend to you, and this is how i get treated? i was patient with you, i stopped talking to you and just let you come to me. but tonight is the end of all of this crap. what you did 2 months ago makes no sense, and wasn't called for one bit. i tried and put forth as much effort as i could let myself put forth and i got nothing. when you contacted me monday night i thought to myself "oh, maybe he has finally realized what he is doing." but like always, i was wrong. you bailed on me 2 days later, then continued to lead me on about other matters. i am beating myself up over this. telling myself i should have never trusted you. i should have never helped you. i should have never believed a word out of your fucking mouth. but how was i to know you'd turn out like every single other person i was ever like this with? i thought you were different, i thought you really did care, and you really werent like the other 2 ass holes in your band, but you are. and it hurts knowing thats what you've turned into.

honestly. i miss the days when you called me YOUR hayley williams. and when i would call you travis/caleb/martin/ryanross. and having dance parties to every type of music in dennys parking lots. and sitting in the hospital with you for 7 straight hours to make sure you weren't going to die. i guess i just miss having a best friend.















ps: amanda hotshotts is amazing. and i love you. and i miss you already. and i will forever be your faraway frank. and dont you worry.....my buns will be back there in noooo time =)