well this past week was....eventful?

first things first: travis langolf can fall off the face of the earth for all i care. i have done nothing but good things for you and have been nothing but a great friend to you, and this is how i get treated? i was patient with you, i stopped talking to you and just let you come to me. but tonight is the end of all of this crap. what you did 2 months ago makes no sense, and wasn't called for one bit. i tried and put forth as much effort as i could let myself put forth and i got nothing. when you contacted me monday night i thought to myself "oh, maybe he has finally realized what he is doing." but like always, i was wrong. you bailed on me 2 days later, then continued to lead me on about other matters. i am beating myself up over this. telling myself i should have never trusted you. i should have never helped you. i should have never believed a word out of your fucking mouth. but how was i to know you'd turn out like every single other person i was ever like this with? i thought you were different, i thought you really did care, and you really werent like the other 2 ass holes in your band, but you are. and it hurts knowing thats what you've turned into.

honestly. i miss the days when you called me YOUR hayley williams. and when i would call you travis/caleb/martin/ryanross. and having dance parties to every type of music in dennys parking lots. and sitting in the hospital with you for 7 straight hours to make sure you weren't going to die. i guess i just miss having a best friend.















ps: amanda hotshotts is amazing. and i love you. and i miss you already. and i will forever be your faraway frank. and dont you worry.....my buns will be back there in noooo time =)