not knowing what to do

in certain situations really sucks.
i know the timing wasn't best for us, but does that mean in the future something wont happen? i know just friends is what we agreed on, but what about after you've focused on yourself and fixed the things that you felt needed fixing? i don't know if i should try to move on, or wait. i know you're worth the wait, but i don't want to put myself through a wait for nothing if its not going to happen.
on the other hand. there kind of is someone else. i haven't known him long at all, and i don't know how well i can trust him or depend on him to be there, like i can with you. a big part of me for some reason has a big feeling that he talks to others the same way he talks to me, but a big part of me also feels hes sincere when he says the things he says to me. i don't know if i should move on, or if i should wait. its a decision i almost wish i didn't have to make. you will always be a big part of my life, just as you have been the past years we've known each other. i don't want to move on, and risk what could be with us in the future, but i don't want to be stuck on you and not know what could have been with someone else.












this doesn't even begin to describe what my head and heart are going through right now.