these nights are getting colder and colder.

I've been feeling pretty lonely lately. The winter does that to me from time to time. Far more often than id like it to. I don't know if its simply because I always find myself staying up late, never with any body else, or if its simply because I am always catching my mind wandering off and thinking about something hundreds of miles away. Or maybe its both. Either way, I no longer want to feel it. I know if its my mind thinking of someone, I need reassurance from that someone to not feel the lonliness, but I don't want to need that anymore. I want to be able to just know with out being constantly reminded. I need to be able to trust that if that person felt a different way than previously stated, that they would tell me. But for now, I need the reassurance. Forgive me if im asking too much, this is just the way I was made.