pound my knuckles hard against the floor. my head against the wall. i did this to myself.

I lot is going on.
Something is happening to me that I can't quite explain.
I haven't feel like myself lately, nor have i acted that way.
I am pushing away the person that means the most to me.
I don't want to lose another person that means this much to me.
I can't lose him.
No one wants me around anymore because of these moods.
And frankly I don't blame them.
I don't even want to be around myself when I am like this.
At the moment, I am not sure what it is that's triggering it.
Or how to prevent it, or make it go away.





I am so lost.
So confused.
and so alone in this.