Written July 18, 2007

Every now and then in your life, you come across one person, who you know right away will impact your life greatly. Most of you will hold on to that person as if you were drowning and they were your lifesaver. Some of you won't realize it at first, but as the time goes on, and you grow closer and closer, you become more aware of why they're supposed to be there, and you accept that. Then there’s the ones who realize it right away, and everything is amazing, it feels like a movie, like you're on the big screen, playing a character so unlike your self. Once things seem to be perfect, like nothing can ever break you two apart from one another, you get caught up in something completely irrelevant to your relationship, and do something that doesn't fit your normal character, and everything crashes down. You lose that person you've grown so close to. It kills you to know that you've messed something so amazing, and so perfect up, that you can't help but beat yourself up over it. You wear out the word "sorry" to the point at which you don't feel like it has any emotion left in it. It took a little while, but once more, things get back to normal. This is where I fall. I have had many people in my life, good, bad, loving, hating, boys, girls, men, women, black, and white, and everything in between. But only a handful of people have been those lifesavers for me. They have been the only ones I’d beg and pled for forgiveness from. There is one certain person out there, whom will remain nameless, who meant more to me than 90% of my family, and pretty much all of my friends. But of course, i let something distract me, and get a hold of a side of me that i have never seen before. I messed things up. I don't regret anything in my life, but i do apologize for some of the things i have done. Some of you may know who this is about, and i know a lot of you will give me shit for it, but I don't care anymore. There has only been one swampthing in my life, and no one person, or group of people will ever be able to come close to how that person was to me


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And this is the most meaningful responce i could have ever imagined getting:

From: cait
Date: 18 Jul 2007, 02:03

normally i dont, but i read that. then again. and again. although its in your 'heros' section, you can tell theres much more to it than that. that whoever this person may be, they were more than just a hero to you but a part of you. its rare to find people like that who will make such an impact. its probably even harder to keep them. i really liked what you said and the fact that you dont care who reads it because to you, it means something. time comes and goes but memories stay. i hope you find whatever you are looking for in this person. i always think that if you want something bad enough, you'll find it. after reading that, it seems like you want it pretty badly. but passion is good. that'll get you somewhere in life.