what i wrote to colleen.

this is the exact message i wrote her.
she read it and never replied.
good.


"i know meredith just sent you a message, but i have things to say too. I don't want you in my life, not now, and probably not ever. I have an incredible father, an amazing sister, and the best friends i could ever ask for, and thats all i need and want. What you did is unforgivable and something ill never be able to understand. When people ask me why i never talk about my mother, i say its because i don't have one. They'll always respond with 'well, of course you have a mom, otherwise you wouldn't be here' and i always say no, it takes more than giving birth to a child to become their mother, therefore i don't have a mother. My dad did the most incredible job raising us and he has taught me to stand up for my self, do what i believe is the right thing, and to never let people walk on me or take advantage of me. So right now, i am standing up for what i believe in and doing what i think is right. Im telling you how youve made me feel for the past 11 years. After living a childhood in hopes you would come back, i finally got over the fact that you weren't my junior year of high school, and it felt amazing to not want you in my life any longer. I finally realized i don't need you to be happy or to succeed. I have everything and everyone I could ever ask for. I will tell you this, I am doing amazing. I am living my life the way I want to and i don't let things get in my way. Regardless of the fact that i lost my best friend and my everything(who just so happens to have been your mother)this year, I am happy because of the things she taught me and that she was the mother role in my life, not you. No person could have done a more amazing job with everything that has gone on with me through the years than meredith, my dad, and gandy. I have nothing left to say, except the only reason id ever want you back in my life, is for the money you owe my father, and thats it. nothing more. nothing for myself. just what he should have been getting for the past 11 years."